As the baseball trade deadline is roughly 23 hours away, I find myself quite depressed, fearful and anxious. Keeping in mind that I normally suffer for any or all of those symptoms all the time, it may not seem like such a big deal, but it is. Because this time, it’s not just all in my head, they are quite real, and arise from the fact that my team(s) could look quite different tomorrow. Having been a lifelong Phillies fan, their predicament has me quite knotted. Five of my Phillies fav’s have been the subject of trade rumors, and while some are just plain rediculous, and not going to happen (Rollins, Utley, Howard), others seem quite possible if not likely (Victorino, Pence, Pierre, Blanton, Lee – wait, should Lee be on the other list? Quite likely…). I am resistant to change, so I wish none of them gone. That said, a case could be made that it’s smart to shift Victorino, which I might slightly agree with, but Pence and Pierre I don’t at all think should be gone. As a Reds fan, living in Dayton, Ohio for the last 30 years, I am also concerned about the moves that Walt might make. I am not one to upset a winning club chemistry, but, that said, if the Reds end up with Victorino, Pence or Pierre, I’d be happier about that than if any of those for-now Phillies ended up on any other team. A lot of anxiety, and it’s compounded by the recent onset of my twitter addiction. Talk about rumors! I can’t quit checking the feed. But it’s tricky, too. It’s taken me a few days to get savvy, but now when I see 1000 re-tweets of a confirmed trade from “Ken RosenthaI” (that’s not an “L”, but a caps “i”!), I know better. Now I’m hip to the “i” for an “L” trick. Live and learn… Bottom line – sad to see Phillies players depart, but they probably will. BUT I DON’T WANT THEM TO. And Reds, DON’T CHANGE A THING, PLEASE. But they probably will. So, if I don’t survive the next 23 hours, at least you’ll know why. But I hope I do, so I can See HOF Marty shave his head this Friday. So go Reds, and OMG Phillies (night off tonight)! To all the Phillies today who won’t be tomorrow, I sincerely thank you for all the excitement. It’s been a great run, but please know I love you win or lose.